Showing posts with label twins. Show all posts
Showing posts with label twins. Show all posts

Sunday, February 19, 2017

Two Who Are Three

THREE.


(I promise, they are way more excited than those fake smiles are letting on.)

I can't say that this is exactly one of those "oh my gosh time sure has flown I can't believe my babies are that old omg!!!!!11!!!" kind of posts.

Honestly?  It feels like Caden and Brooklyn have been two-years old for approximately FOREVER.  Seriously, this past year has been LONG.  I'm mostly surprised that they aren't three yet.  In the past few months, I've often found myself thinking of them as three years old.  So the fact that we are just getting here?  Feels kind of strange.

Part of that is the addition of baby brother almost exactly a year ago.  The year has been long with meeting and caring for another little person's needs.  The nursing and the changing and the additional sleep deprivation.

But the bigger thing is that they themselves just seem so old.  They're usually pretty mature.  Oh, don't get me wrong. They have their moments.  We have our fair share of tantrums and stubborn streaks and lack of listening around here.  But for the most part?  They're good little kids.  They are so very verbal, and certainly not shy.  It's usually a race (or a tie) to see which of them answers first when their teachers at school or gymnastics ask a question.  They chitter-chatter nonstop and will usually answer a question asked directly to them, whether from an adult or another kid.  They're better at sharing and taking turns than most kids their age, simply because they've never known any different.  And they just plain old act older.  More often than not I find them interacting with the 3, 4, or 5 year olds at the playground or on playdates, instead of their fellow 2-year olds.  Just last week at the park, Brooklyn and another little girl were chatting away, having a full-blown conversation, struck up by Brooklyn herself, and I was surprised when her new friend said she was five years old.

They're so physically able as well.  They - Caden especially - don't shy away from the big kid equipment at the park, and tackle most of the challenges sent their way at gymnastics.  They've always been a bit on the early side as far as physical movement is concerned, crawling, walking, climbing, etc., and that trend has continued.  

They're both smart.  They pick up new concepts and memorize things at lightning speed.  More than one of their teachers has commented on how early they were able to recognize all of their letters, and shapes, and colors.  They have (or, ahem, can have) ridiculously long attention spans for their age, and will think nothing about sitting through the reading of an entire stack of books.

And most of the baby stuff has completely disappeared.  Where many of their playmates are still in cribs, they've been in toddler beds for over a year.  The pacifiers are long gone.  They've been out of diapers for half a year or more.  

Between our year of #threeunderthree (so long, hashtag), and their relative maturity, they seem so much older to me than just now turning three.

But here it is, a third birthday.  Times two.  A double third birthday celebration.  And then again, can it be that it was only three short years ago that these two little babies made us parents?  Just three years ago that I was relieved of the 10 1/2 pounds of baby all squirreled up inside of me?  Three years ago that our lives were so drastically altered?






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Three-year old Caden loves trucks and tractors.  He enjoys play-doh, coloring, and painting, and more often than not is drawing a "road".  His answer to, "what should we do?" is usually, "I know!  Let's build a choo-choo track!"  He is my often serious, sometimes mischievous, rule-following little helper, and the most polite toddler you ever did see.  "Oh thank you mommy, thank you!  thank you for helpin' me!"  He loves to talk and make observations.  He has a wild streak - still waiting for that healthy dose of fear to kick in - and is a champion balance bike rider. He also adores books (Berenstain Bears are a particular favorite) and the show Super Why.



And three-year old Brooklyn.  She can be a little chatterbox.  Whenever we go somewhere, to school or a friend's house, she immediately finds a baby or a stuffed animal to care for until it's time for us to leave.  She is a little mommy to Nolan, too, helping to give him a drink of water or more food and can even "baby-sit" him for awhile, playing games and making him laugh, until her attention wanders to other things.  She has a joyful, silly, spirited streak, and enjoys play-doh, coloring, and painting.  She loves to sing songs (it's amazing how many she has memorized) and to read books.  And with their recent gymnastics classes, she is a near-professional somersaulter.  

Together, these two are absolutely, positively BFFs.  If one wakes up before the other, the second one wanders around their bedroom once they get up, wondering "where's Brooklyn?" or "where's Caden?".  They play pretend and sing their favorite Frozen songs together all the live-long day.  "I'm Elsa - chase me!"  "Come back Elsa!" *epic run around the house ensues* "Now I'm Elsa!" *repeats all day long* They adore their baby brother and quite literally tackle him with hugs, and suffocate him with kisses.  They love to cheer him on whenever he does something new: "he's standing!  He's walking!  He said 'book'!"...even though some of these things he's been doing for awhile now.  And they share and take turns and help each other - often preferring each other's help instead Tyson's or mine - all day long.

Happy Birthday, you two big three-year olds!  It's about time...


Monday, September 26, 2016

The Trenches

This three-under-three thing.  It sounds cute.  It certainly makes for a catchy hashtag.  But the WORK.  So much work.  Somehow it wasn't so bad at first.  I thought the first few weeks/months would be the hardest...a newborn!  Twin toddlers!  Constant nursing!  Night wakings!  Juggling it all!  Somehow we escaped what I had dreamed up in my head to be "the worst".  Sure we had some help from family at first, but even after that, it just wasn't so bad.  Nolan was a really good sleeper, the twins didn't have any issues with having a baby in the house, we relaxed and adjusted...I don't want to call it easy, but it certainly wasn't bad.  

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Somehow over the summer it became much more difficult.  Maybe when Nolan became more scheduled and needs to take naps at home?  When activities basically ceased for the summer so our predictable routines to get out of the house kind of vanished?  When the twins naps became suddenly shorter?  I'm not sure.  Probably a combination of it all + the reality of having two 2-year olds and a baby around.  Whatever happened, I can hardly find a chance to write now, to read, to get the things I need to get done, much less the things I want to do.  Keeping up with birthdays, holidays, the playdates we have each week seem virtually impossible lately.  Things keep sneaking up on me.  This isn't me.  I'm organized!  I schedule everything there is to be scheduled and probably more!  I still use a planner, dammit!  How does this happen?

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I thought I'd been here before.  But certainly this is what they call "The Trenches".


It looks so nice, doesn't it?  DON'T BE FOOLED BY THE PRETTY PICTURE.

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It's exhausting.  So much right now is just getting from sun up (or *ahem* before the sun is up, thank you very much, toddlers) to sun down.  A daily endless loop of food-COFFEE-dishes-playtime-snacks-nursing-naps-cleaning-picking up toys-washing clothes-folding clothes-picking up toys *again*-teaching-disciplining-changing diapers-bathtime-go to sleep-go to sleep-go to sleep.  It is such a marathon.  Especially since the twins have decided their naps should be no longer than 1.5 hours (gahhhh!), the days are loooong.  I usually get to the end of the day and have zero energy for much of anything.  I've had approximately zero time to write or read or catch up on photos lately because I'm either A: pressed for time B: mentally and physically exhausted or (most likely) C: both.  It's been enough to just get through each day lately without adding anything else to the end of it.

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That's not to say the days are hard, exactly.  I mean, they certainly aren't easy.  But I don't have any extra worries or concerns or issues.  The kids are all developing fine, none of them have been sick, we hang out with friends and get out of the house, we're pretty much settled into our "new" home.  We have enough money to keep a roof over our heads and buy food that I'm usually able to find time to cook.  They're generally happy, good, agreeable, lovely little children.  Frankly, it's exhausting enough to get through the day (2-year old DRAMAZ x two!) without any additional problems.

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In fact, 90% of the time it's actually pretty okay.  The kids are playing well, they're listening or eating what they're supposed to, the house isn't any more of a mess than is to be expected.  It's the OTHER 10% of the time - when the you-know-what hits the fan - that is stressful.  Everyone decides to cry at once or a 2-year old decides to see what happens when they hit one of their siblings (usually causing more crying) or we're all ready to leave the house but someone needs a sudden diaper change while another wants "NO DAAAAA-DDDDYYYYY" (who is working, of course) to put their shoes on.

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And this so close in age thing is weird.  While it seems like virtually everyone else with multiple kids (and especially 3+ kids) has at least one that's headed back to school, we're, uh, still just here.  All of us.  Here we all are!  Same old routine.  No one is even headed off to preschool for a few hours a week.  While there are a few activities we're gearing up for again, there is no drop-off and pick-up involved.  No break or the chance of having less children around for a routine span of a few hours.


I mean, there IS their parent-child class.  But it's generally frowned upon to ditch your child(ren) at the parent-child class while you go get coffee and a pedicure.  Bummer.

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The so close in age thing also means it's difficult for Tyson and I to get away.  You can't just hire your average teenage babysitter and leave for the night.  The only people we can really trust with bedtime are grandparents.  Twins + a baby + bedtime basically requires two people around.  Even with two  capable teenagers, Tyson and I would basically have to go sit outside on the front steps for our date, since after paying for two babysitters we would have used up any and all money we could have used to go out to dinner or do anything for the night.

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I told Tyson that this is probably (I mean, we'll see, but let me have this here) the most difficult time in our married/parenting lives.  Sure if we have another kid that's, y'know, another kid, but Caden and Brooklyn will at least be in some sort of school by that time.  Twin 2-year olds and a baby are just all so needy right now.  No one can get dressed by themselves, Brooklyn and Nolan still need diaper changes, no one can get food on their own (well, okay, Caden can open the pantry door and both he and Brooklyn know how to pull up a chair to get at the good stuff, so it's not like they'd exactly starve...), they're still too young to play outside by themselves...  

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There are glimpses, though.  Caden, my miracle potty-trainer, goes to the bathroom like a champ (besides needing help pulling those pesky pants back up).  Some of the older kids in the neighborhood love to play with the twins, and I sometimes get a break once the big kids are home from school for the day, while the twins run around outside with their "friends" while I nurse Nolan in peace and get dinner started.  All three have an independent streak, and don't mind being dropped off at church or playing with their teachers at school.  Heck, even when I'm around at their parent-child class, Caden and Brooklyn could usually care less that I'm anywhere near them.  They're getting better at playing independently even while at home.


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And also, so this isn't one entire, long complaint of a post, it can also be really fun.  Two-year olds, two-and-a-half-year olds, are a lot of fun.  They talk a lot (like, a LOT, a lot) (okay, it can get kind of annoying), and constantly crack me up with their conversations.  They love their baby brother, who is in danger of being smushed, smashed, and/or suffocated from so many hugs.  Caden and Brooklyn can do so many more things now, like ride bikes, play with toys that are actually interesting, and interact with other kids in a way that they just couldn't before.  And Nolan continues to be the world's easiest, happiest baby.  

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We have five more months of this three-under-three business.  The only way out is through.  Then we'll have three-under-four!  Though that hashtag isn't quite as catchy.

Wednesday, August 10, 2016

August, Take Two

I'm not sure that I exactly like August any better than the last time I posted, but...


...I guess it's not all bad.



Tyson was gone for four days to a family reunion this past weekend, so he took an extra day off to be with us this week.  (Ahem I told him that he couldn't go never ever ever period no way Jose was he leaving me with three babies unless he took another day off just to spend with us.) (My cousin's daughter also came over to help us out for three of the days.  So there's that.  Paying a teenager to hang out with my sometimes-whiny kids and help with fun things like constant toy clean up?  Genius.)  So on the afternoon of "family: day, we took Caden and Brooklyn to a splash pad that I'd heard about nearby while my mom watched Nolan.  Imagine my surprise when we showed up to find not only the splash pad, (which was kinda lame), but a beach.  A beautiful, sandy, clean, glorious lake beach.


Ain't a Minnesotan out there who can resist this.

So we pulled out our towels, and a few snacks, and made camp.  We didn't have sand toys or floaties.  We didn't have a cooler.  We didn't have much time (here was that darn nursing baby to get back to and all).  But we had perfect weather, warm water, and the beach practically to ourselves (weekdays!).  Besides, other kids had beach toys for us to share steal. Why bother with our own?  Too much work, really.


(Also, ain't a mama out there who can resist taking a break in the sand while daddy takes care of the kids.  This is about the time that I was missing a cooler full of icy-cold drinks...)






(Brooklyn's cute and all but the best part of this photo is the American popsicle float in the background.)


(Brooklyn agrees.)



(Proof that it was a successful beach day.)

Friday, July 1, 2016

On Potty Training Success...and Failure

The thing with parenting twins is, we're often juggling different strategies at the same time to deal with each child.  Okay, so I realize that any parent with more than one kid has to deal with this, but somehow it's different when your children are at the exact same stage in life, and yet polar opposites in some situation or another, so you basically need ALL THE ADVICE RIGHT NOW.  As similar as twins can be, they can also be completely, totally, ridiculously different from one another.  Almost like they are each their own individual little people or something.  Huh.

From talking to parents of one child, or even children who are several years apart, it seems like it can be easy to think that your child represents all kids at a particular age.  Your baby sleeps through the night?  All babies must sleep through the night, what is everyone complaining about?    Your child was talking at 10 months?  You assume all kids are talking by 10 months.  Your toddler only eats the purple box of mac & cheese?  Why do they even bother making the other kinds, just stock the shelves with purple boxes, please.  While you might know that this isn't exactly true (hello, that's why there were 4723 parenting advice books/columns/posts written last month alone), it's also hard to imagine it being any other way when you only have your own singular experience to go on.

While it can often be like that with twins, too, (Caden and Brooklyn are very similar), sometimes the reality of parenting  two individual, different little people can smack you straight upside the head.

Take...potty training.


As I wrote after our "potty-training bootcamp" weekend, Caden caught on like a champ.  No struggles, no look back.  You might have thought he'd been doing it for months, instead of mere hours.  He's still doing amazingly well.  Underwear all day (including for nap), pull-up all night (I don't want to interrupt our recent success with sleep by doing nighttime training just yet), has gone on several different "big potties" when we are out in public like it's no big deal, etc.  Sure he's had accidents, and doesn't usually want to stop playtime just to go sit on the potty, but nothing out of the ordinary.  He's...potty trained.  (Fist bump.)

Brooklyn never made it there.  That's okay.  Our potty training bootcamp was kind of an experiment, to see if all the signs of potty training readiness they were each showing were actually accurate.  Tuesday morning after our potty training weekend found myself in the bathroom with Brooklyn, pleading with her to stay on the potty just a little bit longer so she would actually go.  Nolan was in my arms, wailing, because he wanted to be fed.  Tyson was back at work.  And Caden was wandering around the house taking full advantage of the chaos and getting into God-knows-what.  That's the moment that I took a look around and decided to quit.  We were all miserable.  (Well, except for Caden.  I'm sure he enjoyed his relative freedom while I was stuck in the bathroom with Brooklyn.)  Potty training had turned into a battle of wills between myself and this little two-year old girl (who apparently has the world's strongest bladder), and I was certainly not going to win.  I knew this wasn't sustainable while I was on my own, with three kids, and Tyson back at work.  So...we'll try again in a few months.  And maybe again a few months after that.  ("Me potty," Brooklyn keeps saying, "No yet."  Alright then.)

My point is, twins can really show you the full spectrum of it all when it comes to parenting.  I can relate to both extremes, at the same time, at least in the potty-training world.  I celebrate with you, happy moms, whose kids sat on the potty from the start with no issue, accepted their M&Ms and impossibly small new underwear as their reward, and never looked back.  And I commiserate with you, frustrated mamas, who just can't believe the absolutely epic stubbornness all wrapped up in one little toddler.  We've read the books, done the stuff, tried the tricks.  It didn't work.  I get it.  We WILL win in the end.  I raise my glass of wine to all you mamas, both in celebration and in defeat.  Come to think of it, maybe I need a glass of wine in each hand...

Caden and Brooklyn's personalities can be so.  dang.  similar.  In fact, this is the first "milestone" that they haven't really hit "together".  Rolling over, walking, talking...they did all of these things within days of each other.  This is a very different type of milestone, though.  And the older they get, the more we see their differences, their individuality.  What makes Caden, Caden is his rule-following, doesn't-think-twice, perseverance.  While Brooklyn has a more healthy sense of fear, combined with a generally sunny disposition, friendly attitude, and a bit of a stubborn streak.

So, at least I had three in diapers for just four months.  Now we're back to two.  Though I'm not quite sure if that's a step forward, since I now haul size 1 diapers, size 4 diapers, AND an extra set of shorts and underwear all around in the diaper bag.  Is this an improvement?  Maybe not...



Monday, June 6, 2016

Post (Potty Training Bootcamp) Weekend

It was...


...all undies...


...all the time.

It was also exhausting and emotionally draining.  Being stuck with your kids 24/7, not leaving the house, to train them to do something like this is so intense because of its all-consuming nature.  I think we're all sick of each other.  It sort of reminded me of the early days of twins where my days were dictated by their feeding schedule (is someone hungry?  yes, always.  all the time.), but replace "do they need to eat?" with "let's go sit on the potty!".  (Being fake-excited about going to sit on the potty for the 347th time in a row: ALSO EMOTIONALLY EXHAUSTING.)  Thank the Lord that Nana and Papa stopped by last night to offer some relief in the child-wrangling department, and, more importantly: dinner.


Caden's reaction when the potty chairs arrived in the mail on Friday and we opened the box: "Oh.  my.  GOSH."  Then we immediately took them to the bathroom where the above happened.  No Caden is not wearing any pants.  He had both pants and diaper stripped off before he even got to the bathroom.

Which should have been my first clue as to how things were going to go down over the weekend.

So...how did it go?


(Quick synopsis: we didn't use any particular "method" but through my quick scan of the internets went with essentially a "3-day" or potty-training bootcamp-type style.  (Which: isn't all potty training basically a bootcamp for the first few days?)  We kept them only in underwear (which they had picked out last week) (Thomas the Train ("choo choos!") for Caden, Frozen for Brooklyn ("so-man!"),  no pants, kept water and juice boxes always within arms reach, and set a timer to run them to the potty every 15-20 minutes or so.  No leaving the house.  We did go outside the second day but brought the potties out with us.  They also got an M&M as a reward every time they went in the potty.)  (Parentheses!!!)

Whoever said that boys are harder to potty train than girls is a lying LIAR.  Caden is basically potty trained already.  He went immediately the first time he sat on the potty Saturday morning, and has gone every single time that he's sat on the potty afterwards.  He has had almost no accidents.  By late Saturday morning he was already telling us when he had to go, even while in the middle of playing.  By Saturday afternoon I was pretty sure that he was milking us for all the M&Ms we were worth, because he was going potty about every 10 minutes whether we prompted him to or not, mostly just a few drops.  Then he would triumphantly proclaim "Nem-en-em!".


Brooklyn on the other hand...

She's been stubborn.  And a little bit scared.  And even though she loves reading her potty book, and gets really excited every time she DOES go on the potty ("yay ME!!!") and shows every other sign of potty-training readiness that Caden exhibits, is just not completely there yet.  The first day was mostly a failure.  The second day went a lot better.  Now today she seems to have taken a step back again.  *facepalm*  If she was the only potty-training child, I might back off and try again in a month or two, (and maybe I still will), but Caden is so THERE, and I'm hoping that his continued success will encourage her more.  Right now she seems content in the role of cheerleader, though, and is happy to clap for Caden and even help him "pick" his M&M without minding that she doesn't get one of her own.  Might have to try a different track of motivation for her.  I even tried bribing her with books and backrubs and toenail polish to get her to sit on the potty longer, but, usually...nothing.  Girl apparently has a bladder made of steel.


Caden is SUCH a rule-following lover of routine, so in many ways it doesn't surprise me that he caught on immediately.  He was so excited for his "choo choo" underwear and potty just his size, and has wholeheartedly embraced the routine of pee-dump-flush-wash hands-M&M.  (Especially the hand washing part.  "What are you going to do with the money you save on diapers?" people have asked me (which isn't actually all that much since we mostly cloth diaper).  Oh gee, I would just love to spend it on my water bill...)


Above: Potty ROCK STAR.  Keep up the good work.

Below: the only one I want to keep diapering.


If all goes according to plan (ha!) that means I will only have ONE KID in diapers.  Do you realize what that means???  I have NEVER HAD THAT before.  In fact for the first time in (approximately) FOREVER I only washed a load of diapers ONE TIME over the past few days.  

Go, Brooklyn, go.


Wednesday, April 6, 2016

One After Two

I always suspected, by having twins first, that I missed out on something.  While I love both Caden and Brooklyn, can't imagine life without them, enjoy the adventure of having twins, etc., etc., etc., I was always secretly envious of everyone else with their one baby.  It seemed so easy!  Shopping carts weren't an issue, schedule sync-up wasn't even on their radar, walking in and out of anywhere with a single carseat or toddler in hand - leaving the other hand free, gloriously free! - seemed like such a luxury to me.  Then there was the bonding. My attention has always been so divided with the twins.  Even (or maybe especially) as infants, it seemed like I was constantly passing them off to another set of hands or putting them down in the nearest available swing/bouncy seat/playmat/surface not contaminated by spit-up so I could tend to feeding or rocking the other one.  Having one child to focus on - completely - has always been something that I've been a little jealous of.  (Which (ahem, quick vent here) is why it always rubs me the wrong way when people compare having twins to having two kids close in age.  You got to experience having a single child for 15, 16, 18 whatever-ish months before the other came along!  And were pregnant with a single baby at a time.  Still difficult, NOT THE SAME.  Okay, rant over.)


Turns out...I think I was right.  I already wrote about how the entire birth experience with a singleton was completely and entirely different than with twins.  Now, six weeks in, the contrast has continued.  I keep catching glimpses into what life would have been like with one baby.  When I take Nolan out of the house, just him and me, it really is so simple to take his carseat along...no strollers or mental how-the-heck-do-I-get-into-the-store pre-planning required.  Nursing one baby is still quite the time commitment, but absolutely nothing like nursing two (and continues to make me forever grateful that the twins came along first...without having to deal with having another child around).  I've had time to just hold him while he's sleeping...I never did that with the twins.  If and when Caden and Brooklyn were both sleeping, especially at this young age, the countdown was on for me to shower/eat something/go to the bathroom/do some laundry before one or both woke up to nurse again.

Nolan even has a SCHEDULE.  He's already established regular patterns for himself during the day. Caden and Brooklyn (and a lot of twins I know, when us moms compare notes) didn't have any sort of schedule - individually, together, AT ALL PERIOD - for the first 6-7 MONTHS.  I remember reading parenting forums at the time, how others would post about their baby's "1 am feed", or what time their baby went down for the night, while I sat there and thought, "...the hell?".  There were no patterns or regularity to the twins schedule, not by a long shot.  What is this "down" for the "night" that you speak of?  Well guess what? Now MY kid is the one who wakes for a "1 am feeding".  I KNOW this.  He DOES this regularly all by himself.  It's AMAZING.  (Almost like he's his own little person, completely separate from his brother and sister.  Whoda thunk?)

Of course there is a flip side to all of this.  While having one newborn is so much more peaceful than two, those "two" are now TODDLERS and so it's actually not all that peaceful. I mean, we haven't exactly gotten rid of them or anything.  They are still VERY MUCH around each and every day, and VERY INTERESTED in this little baby brother.  But Caden, Brooklyn, and I...we had a routine down before Nolan came along.  It was actually relatively easy to take them out and about and do all sorts of things each and every day.  Having two kids the same age is difficult in its own way (though it's not all bad).  Balancing kiddos of multiple ages is an entirely different ballgame.  The quiet time of nursing a newborn is quickly interrupted by toddlers who demand snacks of their own.  But also the relative ease of feeding toddlers is rendered impossible by a newborn who decides he needs to eat at the exact second they are settled in their high chairs.  This could spiral into an entirely different post, so I better quit while I'm ahead...

Maybe I did miss out on something, by having twins first.  I won't ever really know, but I also wouldn't give up the experience of having twins.  (Most days.  Hours.  Minutes. Depends on when you check in with me on that.)  They might be different ages, heading towards their own individual milestones and achievements, (Nolan: holding my head up independently. Brooklyn: putting my doll's clothes on without assistance.  Caden: climbing the most dangerous ladder on the playground up to the tallest slide BY MY OWN DANG SELF.), but it is so fun to watch them all together, these two + one.




That guilty look when you're caught using your infant brother as a road for your elephant-on-wheels.




Sunday, February 21, 2016

Post (Second Birthday and Last as a Family of Four!!!) Weekend






{banana cake making}




{banana cake decorating}
{ALL the sprinkles!!!!!!!1!!!1!!)






(afternoon coloring marathon}




{post-coloring selfies}


{birthday trip to zoo}






{human toddlers meet baby giraffe}




{"ROARS" (aka lions) }




{this is actually the best photo of mommy + birthday twins at the zoo}
{no, really, it's the least blurry}
{seriously}


{birthday bikes!}


{need just ONE MORE INCH to be able to ride (erm...scoot?) solo}



{okay, sometimes the best photos are blurry}




{birthday candles x 2}


{and finally...birthday cake!}
{sprinkles and all}
{my sprinkle layer was the same thickness as my frosting layer}
{it was still delicious}